LIttle darling, its been a long cold lonely winter. Little darling, it seems like years since it's been here. Here comes the sun, and I say, its all right.So for those who may actually still check this, even though I don't blog often, I have news.
There is a man. Yes, a real, genuine man. He's everything I could have asked for. Not perfect, but good. Really good. Good for me.
For the first time in a long time I know what it's like to be cared for. He calls me beautiful. He hugs me tight. I don't think anything coming from him is bullshit. I may be setting myself up for disaster but I don't care. I find this an opportunity of a lifetime and if I didn't jump right in I'd regret it for the rest of my life.
I don't care if it doesn't work. At least I tried.
But I think it will.
The picture was taken at sunrise by the lake. We were out for the evening very late and went down to the beach near his house to watch it come up. To sit on rocks and hold each other and watch the sun rise while talking about a whole lot of stuff. We talk in the wee hours because he works the graveyard shift. It's weird. It's good. It's scary.
We talk a lot. Maybe too much. We talk and hold each other and we're complete dorks for each other.
I feel bad that circumstances have to come with all of this. His ex is going through some hell I am sure. I feel for her because when my ex and i parted ways I was devoted to the relationship. Loyal. He had the foresight to end things for us. I may not have agreed with how he did it but in the long run it was the best thing for us. He needed someone different than me.
I hate being the enemy but its inevitable. I know how I felt back then.
I guess the wounds will heal with time.
Jumping in with both feet.
