This is your life and it's ending one minute at a time.

I know it's impossible to garner opinions on something that is only a few months in. I know everything I think is crazy and sane persons would probably talk me out of it. I am aware of the insanity and whirlwind surrounding me.

Yet, I do not care.

I'm 33 years old. Soon to be 34. I have in the past few years gave up caring about certain things. Marriage. Children. Soulmates.

The thing I never gave up on is that I would recognize the person for me when he appeared. I kept myself from thinking in that whole "maybe I'll settle for someone" way. I thought maybe I'd find a suitable person to stave off loneliness. I guess I had no idea what my future held, and I didn't care. I just enjoyed being ridiculous on a weekend basis, acting a fool, and disregarding responsibility.

Then he appeared. I ignored him at first. Hanging out as friends, as we had been, for years and years and years. I'd ask him where he was going after bar, he'd answer "wherever you are." I ignored it.

How did the fairytale happen?

Trust me, what I consider a fairytale isn't most peoples. Perhaps I paint everything in my head in a more vibrant light. There's still being broke, buying groceries, dealing with day to day annoyance, his occasional family drama, etc. I consider being annoyed by life part of the fairytale. Why I call it the fairytale? He wakes up, looks at me, tells me I am beautiful and that he loves me. No one has ever done that. Save for maybe one ex, back in high school. Beautiful isn't something I often hear. I take it rather well considering I am terrible with compliments. But he doesn't stop there. He tells me I have a wonderful soul. That I brighten his days. He loves waking up next to me or sleeping next to me.

Every. Single. Day.

Maybe we'll fade to being less cuddly, less sweet. Maybe we will become other people's version of "normal." But I don't think so. After all the times I've mocked others in their lovey dovey moments, now I am in them consantly.

Step 2. Moving in together September 1st.

Step 3. Discussion of our potential January engagement.

Step 4. Late May/Early June wedding in Vegas.

Life is strange.